‘Til I Can Sit & Think Again

The only emotion that I want to feel right now is despair, but I think I’ve become more resilient – more vaguely hopeful, as if the cumulonimbus descended and everything beyond my immediate field of vision turned hazy and indistinct, and therefore possibly better. — They did not just expect me to play soldier; I


Tripping Over Ourselves

Every mistake mints us into the people we are. We feel fire, fire that rushes up, all-consuming, from the jowls to the forehead; we hear thunder, unexpectedly and frighteningly self-manufactured; we experience the painful catharsis of realizing the thing that’s happened and what we had done to cause it. And in that moment of truth


The Future

It’s always there, isn’t it? Right in front of you; that cloudy mirror, forever reflecting more light than image, more hope than cold reality. We hurt our eyes squinting to get a glimpse of how we’d look, what we would’ve accomplished – but at the same time we cautiously draw a veil of illusion over


Suddenly, Responsibility

From the position I’ve always assumed, assiduously and rather inconspicuously behind the vanguard of sharp minds and keener ambitious, it seems like a lifetime’s work is required to finally transcend that delimiting reassurance of being merely ‘better than average’, straddling the line between obscurity and celebrated brilliance. I am in fact fond of this liberating